Finally ..........

It's really been a long hard days ...
Since that incident had happened ...
Oh gosh ...It has already 4 months ...Has gone ...everything has already gone ...
Previously ,it was really hard for me to accept it ...but I had to ....
It was totally suffered and God knew how it hurt ...
But now ,I had recovered from my wounded ...though the scar can't be removed ...
I've found that ,there's no truth in the world ...
So ,from that day on ...I believe in no one ...
I have no more thinking about her ...
no more visiting her blog nor missing her ...
I knew she had deleted me from her MSN ...
I'm glad she did that ...Coz I did it so ...
I won't add her back ...Coz I just want to get her off from my living life ...
How a person treat you ,you have to return ...
But I won't return to her ...
I'm just hope that she will return me the thing she owe me ASAP...
I don't want to have any fellowship with her anymore ...
I hope she will see this ...
And I will no more writing about her ...

Youth Fellowship ...

This is the youth fellowship from Harvest Community Church Batu Pahat...
Starts from left is Paul-Andrew ,Benjamin-Antchuleta(me) ,Wei Yee ,Ann-Marie(May Lin) and Mark-Brandon .

We're celebrating Ann's Birthday ...
She looks fat ...
Probably eats too much 'Cha Tao Kuah' ...
Other churches youth are increasing ...
But the of youth of my chucrh is decreasing ...

All of us are leaving here ...
So...
Haizzz ....

My creation ...^-^

This is a little thing which I made it myself ...
TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STARS
It's a present for someone ...
hehe...

La Solitudine ...

marco se n'e andato e non ritorna piu...
e il treno delle 7:30 senza lui...
e un cuore di metallo senza l'anima...
nel freddo del mattino grigio di citta...
a scuola il banco e vuoto marco e dentro me...
e dolce il suo respiro fra i pensieri miei...
distanze enormi sembrano dividerci...
ma il cuore batte forte dentro me ...
chissa se tu mi penserai ...
se con i tuoi non parli mai...
se ti nascondi come me ...
sfuggi gli sguardi e te ne stai...
rinchiuso in camera e non vuoi mangiare ...
stringi forte a te il cuscino...
e piangi e non lo sai quanto altro male ti fara la solitudine...
marco nel mio diario ho una fotografia...
hai gli occhi di bambino un poco timido...
la stringo forte al cuore e sento che ci sei...
fra i compiti d'inglese e matematica...
tuo padre e i suoi consigli che monotonia...
lui con il suo lavoro ti ha potato via ...
di certo il tuo parere non l'ha chiesto mai...
ha detto "un giorno tu mi capirai"...
chissa se tu mi penserai...
se com gli amici parlerai...
per non soffrire piu per me...
ma non e facile lo sai...
a scuola non ne posso piu...
e i pomeriggi senza te...
studiare e inutile tutte le idee si affollano su te...
non e possibile dividere la vita di noi due ...
ti prego aspettami amore mio .....ma illuderti non so...
la solitudine fra noi...
questo silenzio dentro me...
e l'inquietudine di vivere la vita senza te...
ti prego aspettami perche ...
non posso stare senza te...
non e possibile dividere la storia di noi due...
la storia di noi due ...
la solitudine ...

Upside down ...

How do u treat a person ...
How the person will treat u back ...
U treat that person good ...
That person will treat u well ...
If u treat that person bad ...
That person will return to u double ...
How do u betray or trick a person ...
That person will revenge to u ...
How do u cheat a person ...
That person won't show his truly face to u ...

This is how human being does ...

But think it wisely ...

Why don't we 1st love that person ...
For that person 1st love us ...

This world is so negative ...

Why don't we make it lively ?

For I 1st love you ...
But for u 1st hate me ...
For I 1st wanted to be with u ...
But for u 1st forsook me ...
For I 1st to be sincere to u ...
But for u 1st cheated me ...
For I 1st took care of u...
But for u 1st betrayed me ...

It's done for us ....
Why don't we try to think about it ...?

How great Thou art ...

I was leaving in a colourless world .......
The world that full of depression ,discouragement ,disappointment ,
bitterness ....
Many times that I was being upset ...
I just couldn't stand in this world anymore ...
People made me pressure ...
Sad ...
Liked I have rejected from the world ...
Terrifying is just surrounded the world ...


But ...
I've just seen one side of the coin ...
I did not see the other side ...
The world is colourful with all the creations ...
How great Thou art ....

My turn ....

Last night talked to a girl ...
She is quite lovely ...
She has a cute name ...
She is happy ...Everyday ...
So better call her Miss Happy ...
I have never seen someone has this motivation ...
And looks so happy and full of joy ...
Her life must be fantastic ...
Her gags are quite funny ...
Haha ....
'Charge battery ' =.='"
She sick but recovered ...
And now is my turn ...
Oh My Gosh !!!
I drank too much water ...
Want to vomit ...
And fever ...
Haizzz...
Your faults ........

Is your face or mask..?

Mankind like to wear a mask to face other people ....

Coz they can't be accepted the truth ...

They feel so ashame to let other people know who they really are ...

So they are very good actors & actresses ...

They try to squeeze out a good face to impress other people ...

But inside ,they are crying or being sad ....

Hatred ,unforgiveness ,bitterness and all the negatives ...

They would like to hide inside ...

They won't manifest themselves to other ...

When people ask you 'How are you dude..?'

You may say 'I'm fine '

But ,are you really fine ...

NO!!! You aren't ...

Do not cheat yourself ...

Ask your heart ....

Why are you hiding these ?

You know I am talking about you ...

I just want to tell you that ...

You have a very serious split personality ...

You have to go for a doctor immediately ...

You may think you are now holy or fantastic ...

Excuse me !!! Don't lie to yourself ...

At the end of the time you will know that was not good ...

Take off your mask now ...

Stop pretending ...

Go for inner healing ...

You will find yourself back ...

Am I paranoid ....

The phone has sold to him ...
But I bought it back ...
What the heck !!!
Coz I just couldn't let this phone go ...
It really meant to me ...
Although ....
Haizzz ...forget it ...
My financial will have solved ...
Thanks God ...
He is my very good friend ....
So ...
I got it back ...
Sorry for fooling him ...

Ready for all ,,and go ...

The time not yet comes ....
I have to wait untill next year May ...
'My daddy said wants to send to overseas '...
I said I want to ...
But not now ...
Hope everything gonna be fine ...
Cheers ...

A new day has come ...

The day has come to an end ...
Which mean it's time to pack my bag and leave ...
I'll be no longer remain at here ...
A new door has open for me ...
I'll be going to study ...
Soon ...
This will be a good path for me to walk on ...
Farewell ...
Abbientot ....
Ciao ...

He is my Boy ...

When I 1st met this boy ...

I was thinking ...

WaOooo....

His appearence absolutely same as when I was little ...

Oh My God ...

He has an adorable face just like when I small ...

Hehehe ...

I couldn't find my old photo ....

So...

I have a strong chemistry with this boy ...

Every time he sees me ,he will come to hug me and ask ...

'Can you speak chinese' ...

I will tell him ...I speak Indian ....

Hopefully when he grows up don't look alike me ...

Coz I am so ugly now ....

Bengzzz ....

I want to be a phenomenal keyboardist ....

I've been learnt keyboard for quite some times ...

You know what ...

When I 1st touched it ...

I've got a strong chemistry with it ...

I love it ...

I'm an intuitive person ..

So I can catch up very fast ...

So I decided to focus on it ...

I was thinking that I can quickly learn a song called 'ye zhi' ...

interprents in English is called 'The leave'...

To perform for someone ...

But now ...

Hmm ...

Now I will try my best to do well in this ...

I want to perform to my Lord ,Jesus ...

He's the one Who saved me ...

Thankyou Almighty Lord ,Jesus ...

My favourite player collections...

This is my 1st MP4 player ....

It was presented by 1 of my friend ...

When my birthday ...

I can't forget that day ...

I am still keeping it ...

Because this is so meaningful to me ...

Thankyou Dude !!!

Apple

Black

This is the 1st compact discs player I bought ...

Because I worked in a mega records shop ...

I bought a lot of CDs ...

And my CDs are increasing ...

Even now ...

So I bought this ...

Convenient to carry wherever I go...

Digital Walkman

Orange & white

This is the 1st MP4 player I bought ...

I bought it at KLCC ...

PC fair ...I've never missed it before ...

But now I don't go anymore ...haha...

This player is functional ...

I like it ...


PMP D801
Silver

This is the 1st MP5 player I bought ...

Also from PC fair at KLCC...

Don't confuse between MP4 & MP5...

The differences between them is ...

MP5 supports RMVB files ...

I often watch movies from here ...

But the screen is too small ...

Celltech
Silver

This is the 2nd MP4 I bought ...

Not from PC fair anymore ...haha ...

This outlook same as I pod Nano ...

But This isn't ...

This is 1 of my favourite player ...

Actually had planned to give someone ...

But now ...Don't need lo ...

Walker BL335

Black

This is the 2nd MP5 I bought ...

I like this ,because it has a large screen ...

So I can watch movies from here very clearly...

The functions are good ...

But 1 bad thing is ...

It spoiled before ...

Coz my fault ...

hehe ...

Active NK3.0

Red & white

This is the 3rd Mp4 player I bought ...

This is the most expensive I have by far ...

I always use it ...

Because it has bluetooth ...

And this is a high definition ...

Absolutely good ...

Sony (walkman) NWZ-A826

Black

This is the last MP4 player I bought for the moment...

This 1 also looks like I pod ...

This functions are quite good ...

But the screen very clear ...

My friend offered me half price ...

So I bought it with a very good price..haha...

But I seldom use it ...

Not more than 10 times ...

Walker BL 385

Blue

These are my collections ...

For the moment these I have ...

I am still looking for something new and special...

Haha ....

The farewell of my love ones ....

You have left me announced ...




I miss you so much ...


I did not know what happened to you ...

Why you didn't want to tell me ...


I know you won't tell me ...


But we always have a very strong connection with each other ...


You promised me that you won't leave me ...


But today you have decided to leave me ...


I didn't want to let you go ...


You always accompanied me ...


When I was down I talked to you ...


But every time when I see you ...


I will get better ...


Why are you so cruel ...


I know that was my fault ...


For not taking care of you ...


I thought I was good enough to you ...


But now I know I wasn't that good to you ...


I know I could never find another like you anymore ...


You're just special to me ...


There's none like you ...


I know this is too late for all to hold back ...


You will always be my babe ...


I am so sorry to you ...


I will always remember the joy you gave me ...

May you be at rest ...Amen !

My love ones ....Leslote ....

We have to be appreciated for the people who helped us ...

Not many people know the meaning of appreciation ...
And not many people will appreciate to those people who reached out their hands to you when you needed ...
They showed their kindnesses to us when we felt hopeless ....
They will never asked for any repay ...
Because they love the people who are around them ...
Without these people you might have died at that time ...
I have many people to be appreciated ...
They helped me when I was lost ...
If the people helped you which something that time ...
Although you might have returned the thing to them ...
But ,you couldn't never repay what grace they gave you ...
I will help them up if they have any difficulty in the future ...
And for those people who don't appreciate for the people who have helped you before ...
I call them 'Gettho Trash' ...
Once I met this person who I helped when this person was in need...
I reached out my hand to this person ...
But this person start saying me nag and nag ...
I have given forgiven to this person many times ....
But this person just won't appreciate what have I done ...
I never blame this person once ...
Even this person like to deceive other people ...
To ruin my name ...
and also turned all the things upside down ...
And now I am in need for something ...
And asked this person for helping ...
But this person has never said even once 'thank you' to me ...
And trying to make another story to other people ...
This person did not appreciate but hurt me again and again ...
because this person thought everything this person does is right ...
But everything that I can do is just forgive and pray for this person ...
I hope this person will repent someday for this person's ...
Selfishness ...bitterness...hatred...unforgiveness...deceive...
I hope this person will get salvation and save this person's mouth...
If not this person will be 'gettho trash' in this world continually ...

The persecution has come to me ...

Many things happened to me recently ...
Something that made me so gloomy ...
I am so tired of being this way ...
My financial has come out of problems...
However is it ...
I still have to deal with them ...
The waves have never stopped hitting me ...
After one wave has hit ...
Another wave is ready to hit ...
But now I know that I am not alone ...
The path I walk on ,He will always be with me ...
I praise You ...

小时候 ， 我的时候 ， 有时候。。。

在我小的时候，每个人都叫我贪吃鬼。。。
那时我非常的喜吃东西。。。 连大便也吃。。。
我还记得我有一个不美好的回忆。。。
my dad is a chinese and my mum is a thai 。。。
So I am a mix but many people thought I am Japanese 。。。
My relatives didn't like my mother just coz she is a thai 。。。
And all of my uncles and aunties bullied my mother and said she was trying to murder my grandmum 。。。
那时我 才4岁，可是却看到我不想看的东西。。。
So I don't really like them ....
They looked down my mum coz she's uneducated ...
but now I am a teacher ...

我喜欢的东西，重小到大都一样。。。 没变过。。。
我是个很专一的人。。。不会三心两意。。。
很喜欢乌龟。。。
还有去旅行一定要座长途巴士。。。 因为没有好好rest 过所以觉得很舒服。。。
还有就是喝Sprite and eat KFC...and chocolate...
but now...I can't eat no more ...
years ago ...I've beed struggled for anorexia（厌食症〕。。。
This has made me suffering many times ...
I can't even eat or sleep ...
It's very pain ...That you can't imagine ...
我 有 吃 药， 就 好 像 吃 饭 那 样。。。
可 是 现 在 没 有 吃lo... 已 经 不 重 要 了。。。
让 它 去 吧。。。 痛 就 痛lo...

不 喜 欢 被 人 骗， 因 为 心 很 痛。。。
She told me she is a Christian then I converted to a Christian...
But then she said she isn't a Christian ...Oh My God....
I always believe what people say ...I don't know why ...
For her ...I try to heal anorexia ...do exercises ...learning my madarin ...
and more...
but when you know that it was a lie ...
you will totally break down ...

人 是 不 会 关 心 你 的 辛 苦 和 痛 苦。。。
只 会 故 这 自 己 的 感 受。。。
这 就 叫 做 人！！！

what is the meaning of LOVE...?

Love is a very powerful expression in this universe .
For all mankind need love for their living lives .
Love is so great that than you can't even imagine how great it is .
If you have a love ones ,you will do something with your willingness for your parts .
Don't think you are extraordinary ,all of these are the power of love .
Love is meant to sacrify ,tolerant ,to be honest ,sincere ,forgiveness ,loyalness , promises and togetherness to each other .
Love he/she with your heart ,mind and soul .
But there are many false love ,too .
Although they will they you how much they love you or how important you are .
That's just puppy love as we called .
When he/she loves you ,they will say 'oh ,I love' .
If they don't love you anymore ,they will say 'oh ,I am sorry' .


Sacrifice:If you are truly in love ,you will sacrify mang things just for your beloved .
The love of sacrifaction can be even sacrify your lives just like what 'Romeo and Juliet' did .

Tolerant:This is about not to show your angers when something goes wrong .
To be accepted their negative habits and their tempers .Don't think about your love ones is to
give you burdens .There's no burdens with love .

Honest/sincere:You have to be honest to your beloved all the times .Not to tell lies to
each other .If you told once lie ,you will need more lies to cover the first you made .
At the end of the time ,everything goes worst .Trust each other with your heart .

Forgiveness:When the other part has done something wrong ,please forgive them .
Because who never done any mistakes in their lives ?If you once give your forgiveness ,
the one who received ,will also forgive you when you did something wrong .
Everyone deserves chances .But they have to repent after all .
If the people who are with unforgiveness heart ,They are absolutely trashes and
garbages in this world .Coz this kind of people ,they are selfish and always think
about themselves .

Loyalness:Love the one with the only heart ,only mind and soul .When you love the one , just give your heart to them .Please don't come out two hearts .If this happens ,you will
hurt the one who really love you .So to be loyal to the ones .

Promises:The pledges or any promises you have made between both ,you have to obey all the time .You might say 'you are the one who I love the most in my life' ....'I can't live
without you'... 'I won't leave you' ...'I love you forever'...'No matters how's the world will be ,
I won't leave you' ...'I will always be your listener' ....
These are what we hear very commonly .Be careful the words you said ,coz this is
gonna to change someone's life forever .Human's words are so powerful to change a
person's life .Because you disobey to your promises ,the people who love you will
get hurt .And they can't get up anymore with those fasle promises you have made .
Try to think about the words you said .

Togetherness:Taking care of each other .No matters how many obstacles are before you ,
you will hold your hands together to go through with these .Give warmth to one another .
No worries .

I had been struggled about what is the love before .I was lost myself and I didn't know who I really am .But now I have found back myself .
I had once .She doesn't believe me and hurt me times to times .She likes to find other guys
although she already has one .She has broken her promises .And then she decided to break up with me to go with other .I was so down and I was trying to hold everything back .
But the words that I spoke to her ,she thought all lies .I tried everything I could .
At the end of the time ,my body came out of disease .After a long while ,she called me on the phone and told me she was so wrong .She believed everything I said and she found those were true .I wasn't lying to her .But ,my heart has gone off to other .She cried and kept on
apologized to me .I forgave her and told her I never blame you .When the time I found
my beloved ,another wave has come and hit me down .Because I know how much I love her .
I can't find that one like her anymore .My heart has totally broken of the words she spoke to me .You will never know the feelings I had .Unless you've experinced this by yourselves .
And now I am on a lonely way .
So please do not give false hopes to the ones .Don't think how much you got hurt ,coz
you will have never known how much you have hurt the ones who love you .

Gracias to my Lord Jesus ......

Heavenly Father ,I am thanking you that your Grace and Mercy have come upon me .
I was so lost that until I didn't really know who I am .I was going to give You up .
I have lost myself for so long and I was so tired about my life .
I denied You from times to times that You are always be my listener .
Because You love me and reached out a hand when I was down .
And tonight You sent an Angel to me by your words ,
I have awakened from lost .
My eyes and my ears are opened now .
Because of Your Great Grace .
You make me understand what is the truth .
From now on I will completely to change my life .
I will walk in Your path which You show me .
I will receive anything that You give me .
Even though I have a lot of disgouragements around me .
Many people are trying to persecute me .
Men's words bring me down .
But now I will break them down in Your precious name .
I was lost but now I am found .
I will break down all the curses and satanities .
O Lord ,coz You are Almighty .
You make everything impossible becomes possible .
I will pray for the people outside who are still unsaved or lost themselves .
For those who are like what I was .
To open their eyes and ears .
And they will come before You and bow down their knees for their repentance .
I confessed what I did ,and i didn't have enough faith to You .
Your precious blood has cleansed my sins .
I will do Your will with Your strenght .
Coz my strenght is so weak that I can't overcome any obstacles .
And Your Blesses are upon us .
Thank you Lord Jesus .
And now I pray .
In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit .
Amen!

Cried out ...

Today ...

I was very moody ...

Because something happened to me ...

around 8p.m ...

I was ready to go to church as usual ...

I was driving on a crowded road ...

I didn't even pay attention when I was driving ...

I was absent-minded ...

I was thinking about somethings ...

I was heading toward ...

Suddenly ...

A car was heading to crash my right ...

The car was with a great speed ...

Fortunely ,he stepped on his brake on time ...

Nobody gets hurt ...

I parked my car aside the road ...

My whole body was shaking ...

And I dropped down my 1st tear ...

I shouted and cried outloud inside my car ...

All the things are inside my heart have burst out in that time ...

I couldn't stop myself even though I tried ...

1 hour later ...

I calmed down myself ...

I continued the way to church ...

The usage of our fingers - 手指的用处

We have 5 fingers at each hand .
我们都有5 只手指在我们的手上。

So do you know how to use these 5 fingers ?
那你知道要怎样用这5 只手指吗？


Ladies and gentlemen , I am going to teach you how to use them .
各位同学们，我现在就要教他家怎样 去用

Now Listen ...
听好。。。

Thumb 拇指

This finger is to point at the other with great polite to ask for permission .

这 只 用 比 较 礼 貌 的 方 式 来 指 别 人 。

and when you want to praise people did something good ...

如 果 你 要 称 赞 人 的 话 是 最 好 的。。。

but when you turn it upside down which mean you say other people bad .

但 是 把 它 反 过 来 的 话， 就 变 成 了 说 别 人 不 好。

Index finger 食指

This finger is to point at the people with great impoliteness .

这 只 用 一 种 不 礼 貌 的 方 式 来 指 他 人。

When you are angry ,then you can use this to point at people .


在 你 生 气 的 时 候 可 以 用 上 他。

Middle finger 中指

In a good way we can say this is international finger ...

好 听 点 的 话 叫 国 际 手 势。。。

But in other way it's call rude finger .

不 好 听 就 叫 中 指。




This finger is to use when you quarrel with someone ,




这 是 如 果 你 和 别 人 吵 架 时 用 的，




or you are really pissed of someone .




或 是 有 人 人 惹 你 时。




When you use this ,you have to shout 'Na' to show your expression .




在 你 用 时， 需 要 喊 出 ' 拿' 来 发 表 你 自 己。

Fourth finger 无名指

This is use to wear a ring when you have married .

这 是 用 来 带 戒 指 来 证 明 你 已 婚 的。

So is very important for all of us .

对 我 们 来 说 都 很 重 要 的。

Little finger 小指

This finger is very common for all of us .

我 们 都 知 道 要 怎 样 去 用 这 只 手 指。

This is use to dig out your 'peanut' from your nostrill .

这 是 用 来 挖 你 的 鼻 屎 的。

Or use can use it to dig your ear ,too .

你 也 可 以 用 来 挖 你 的 耳 屎。

The size would match your nostrill .

大 小 刚 刚 好。

Thank you everybody...

谢 谢 大 家。。。

Plz read this ...

I really didn't know what I wrote here made you felt uneasy ...
I am sorry for that ...
Coz this is kinda show my expressions what I want to come across ...
You have many people can talk to when you want to ...
But I don't really have someone to talk to when I needed ...
So this is the best way to show my expressions here ...
I am speechless ...
Coz I made you angry again ...
I did not mean to ...
I know you are very busy recently ...
I know you have deleted me from your messenger list ...
I have added you back ...
Plz add me back k..?
I have sent 2 messages to you but you did not reply me ...
You want me to forget you ...
Sorry ...
I can't cooperate with you for this ...
Billions of apologises to you ...

1st Kissed...

Everyone does have 1st kissed ...
So when did you lose your 1st kissed..?
I remember I did my 1st kiss when I was 4 ...
Ya...Really 4 ...
I can still clearly remember who was that girl ...
Her name was Collin ...
She has a long and wavy blonde hairs ...
Big blue eyes ...
Fair skin ...
She is from United Kingdom - England ...
That was their summer holidays ...
She and her family came to my town ...
My family is very close with her family ...
So do she and I ...
She often beat me because of the incorrect pronunciation for her name ...
Coz her mother tongue from UK and I wasn't used to ...
So I was always pronounce her name Collin as 'Orange' ...
Big differrent ,isn't it ?
So I was always asked her why used fruit name as your own name ...
And she wouldn't answer me ...
One day I brought her to a swing nearby ...
We were sitting at the swing ...
I drew near to her and she did too ...
After I while I kissed her cheeks ...
And she kissed me back suprisingly ...
After that we looked at each other and kissed at mouth to mouth ...
I told her I liked her ...
And she smiled ...
But now I can't find her anymore ...
Coz her relatives here have moved to other place ...
Kisses are very good to show your expression about how much you love ...
I couldn't believe I did that when I was 4 ...
Haha ...
But quite sweet for that time ...
So what about your story ..?

The Present...

Now is already October ...

Which means Mooncakes Festival is coming soon ...

Actually I had ready a special and beautiful mooncake for you ...

I was ready to give it to you ...

But I am afraid you will angry me ...

or you may throw it away ...

and you will say I am nonsense ...

So I did it before you ...

I had thrown it away ...

It's meaningless to give you if you don't want ...

I knew that ...

But I was still ready it for you ...

Haizz ...

This Festival ...

Quite unhappy and meaningless ...

对 不 起 ， 我 爱 你

已 经 过 了80 天。。。

可 是 我 的 心 里 还 是 有 你。。。

对 不 起。。。 我 以 前 每 次 都 欺 负 你。。。

每 次 都 对 你 发 牢 骚。。。

可 是 这 都 是 因 为 我 很 爱 你 才 会 这 样 的。。。

所 以 现 在 不 管 你 这 么 骂 我， 讨 厌 我， 我 都 不 会 生 气。。。

你 说 我 每 次 都 控 制 你 做 你 想 要 的， 可 是 我 跟 本 都 没 有 对 你 那 样 过。

每 次 我 叫 你 不 要 做 一 些 东 西， 只 要 你 说no。。。 你 都 会 在 做。。。

而 我 每 次 都 支 持 你。。。

不 管 谁 看 便 你， 我 都 会 站 在 你 的 身 旁。。。

我 知 道 你 的 路 很 难 走， 所 以 我 会 尽 力 来 帮 你。。。

我 们 见 面 的 次 数 不 多。。。

每 次 叫 你 出 来 你 都 不 行。。。

虽 然 很 失 望， 有 时 还 会 生 气。。。

可 是 我 重 来 没 有 怪 过 你。。。

因 为 男 人 有 时 候 也 是 要 有 人 来 疼。。。

你 说 我 这 件 衣 服 很 重， 你 要 把 我 脱 掉。。。

可 是 我 都 没 有 给 你 什 么 压 力。。。

你 都 会 把 外 面 的 压 力 当 成 我 给 你 的。。。

你 说 过 你 的 从 前 怎 样 对 你。。。

我 也 是 有 过 和 你 同 样 的。。。

只 是 都 不 值 得 我 去 纪 念 了， 所 以 都 没 有 告 诉 过 你。。。

几 年 前。。。

我 和 她 在 一 起 的 时 候。。。

我 还 以 为 她 真 的 爱 我。。。

有 一 次 打 电 话 给 她， 她 说 在 家 里 要 睡 觉。。。

那 个 时 候 我 自 己 一 个 人 走 在 街 上。。。

挂 了 电 话 后， 抬 头 一 看。。。

看 到 她 和 我 认 识 的 手 牵 手 的 走 在 一 起。。。

我 的 心 碎 了。。。

我 知 道 我 不 可 以 在 这 个 地 方 流 眼 泪。。。

我 忍 到 会 家 了 才 哭 出 来。。。

我 的 发 生 让 我 这 两 年 都 很 讨 厌 女 生。。。

直 到 你 的 出 现。。。

你 给 了 我 从 来 都 没 有 过 的 感 觉。。。

你 很 爱 哭。。。

每 次 你 哭， 我 都 会 不 知 不 觉 的 流 下 眼 泪。。。

可 是 就 是 不 可 以 让 你 知 道。。。

没 有 人 看 过 我 哭 的 样 子， 而 你 是 第 一 个 也 是 最 后 一 个。。。

你 做 过 的 我 都 会 去 原 谅。。。

可 是 我 做 过 的 你 都 没 有 式 着 去 原 谅。。。

没 有 你 的 日 子， 我 根 本 都 没 有 笑 过。。。

不 知 道 为 什 么。。。

我 一 直 都 在 等 你。。。

我 知 道 你 一 定 会 叫 我 不 要 等 了。。。

我 一 直 都 相 信 着 我 们 的 诺 言。。。

我 知 道 你 不 会 骗 我 的。。。

The pledge between us...

Before that you told me if I have got well and you will come back...

But you did not ...

I know you have known a guy in that trip ...

You are still contact with him ...

I am sure that he wants to woo you ...

You ahhhhh....

Really pig la ....

Always do this to me ...

I know you are very attractive ...

Haizz....

I am really down now ...

going off

school holidays has come...
i know you're going on a trip...
you have already had a long time didn't go out for a trip ...
so this is good for you...
but i have a little woory about you...
H1N1 is serious nowadays ...
but if you happy ...
that's ok...
so ...
dump away all your burdens ...
enjoy for this trip ...
I know you like shopping ...
sure that you will over spend ...
haha...
you always do that ...
so ...
happy holiday....
"sab-bai sab-bai'

Who is that girl I see...

She is very short and she has a brunette skin ...
when I 1st looked at her ...
she just looked like primary school girl...
She has an adorable face ...
when I see her ,I wish I could pinch her cheeks ...
When I have no mood ,she would act 'xiao shin' to make me happy...
she is a good actress but I like to hear her own voice...
her voice very sweet ,just like honey...
she has a very funny hobby...
that is crying ....
she always cries and I often made her cried ...
she likes to cry alone and didn't want to let me know ...
once ,I did something to her and made her cried ...
and she has left me away...
I felt sorry about that ...
I just didn't know how to show the way that I love her ...
this thing will deeply carve in my heart forever ...
she said she needs times to calm down ...
2 months has passed...
I really miss her so much ...
if i have a chance to meet her ...
I will run before her and hug her tightly ...
I know she will run away when she sees me ...
but I will run to her effortly and tell her...
"I LOVE YOU ,BABE"
you are not alone....
you will never be alone...
I'll keep my promise to you ...
"i won't leave you "

The times went by very fast
it's already 2 months
but...you are still angry about me
you ah~so petty .....
The days without you are tough for me
I miss you PIG
but you said you hate me
you wanted to anti me
you said I always nag you
I never nag other people
you are the 1st and last
I know I won't get the same feeling anymore
I just wish that you will forgive me
BABE......